*sigh*..."raindrops falling on my head"...how sad...just sad...*sigh*

sad...

alam mo nmn cguro ung feeling na ito?..naman...
haaay... i find sadness amusing. pangit nmn kung puro n lang HAPI!..
panu k b nalulungkot?..wat triggers ur lonliness?..

lam mo un..u're happy. enjoying the moment, watching your fave shows.a minute later your singing ur lungs out with a cheap videoke...then suddenly, awww. sadness fills your heart. wierd..a while ago your having the time of day,tapos sad ka bigla?...haaay...

this just happened last night. i was watching "missmatch",..mjo kinikilig-kilig p nga e. when the show ended, few commercials...then...sad na ako. watda?..i'm not even sure wat happened to me.. kung bat ako nalungkot...natahimik...
so nagnilay-nilay ako to dig out the cause behind this sudden gloom...but to no success.
maybe i shud call a friend, malai nten he/she can open it up for me.
but that's the more saddening part..

who to call? who can i call at 10 in evening,who would care to listen to my rubbish?..
who to call?

i was thinking of someone who can lift me up. cheer me up, crack a few jokes just to make me laugh...
just thinking who to call makes me more sad...

maybe i don't need to be cheered up?...all this sadness and lonliness is itself comforting enough.
it's nice to be sad at times... i feel calm,and relaxed...the solitude...the sincerity and serenity it brings comforts and carress the soul..

it sure feels quiet...i'm glad for being sad...
-_-