haunted

....haunting you i can smell you - alive
your heart pounding in my head ...
lyrics from evanescence's "haunted".

have you ever felt haunted?
every now and then, it just suddenly pops out of nowhere...pop!
like a bubblegum overblown then suddenly breaks, catching your attention from the silence of the room.

haunted...i feel haunted.
not by somebody, nor someone.not even by something.
well maybe it is something ... 'coz i'm not even sure what it is.
a thought?.. an idea? ...maybe a disease.. or a part of me..
grrr...it sucks big time!
a part of you that you don't want to be a part of you.
it's something (have no idea what to call "it", but i'm aware what it is) that i don't want to be a part of me. i don't want to let "it" control me..

i've been trying to throw it away..but it always find its way back.
reminding you of long ago...a long ago you've been running away from for years.
a past you once suppressed, ...but now it seems to have been released from the core you've trapped it into to.

bujururu..bujururu...rubbish..

hmmm...actually ... this is blasphemy...this case is already close. CLOSE i say!bwahaha!!! if i really want to conquer this "it", better not talk more about it. right?
ahehe...it's not there anymore.
maybe i was just reminded of it from time to time...no biggie!
right?

right on!!!
yeah!!!

-_-_-
m not haunted.......m free_-