blimey...

...sad...
a revelation anew...
sad, quite depressing...my heart seemed to have stopped for a split second.
my mind went blank, my hearing weak...i was in oblivion.
i don't know how to react. should i be in anger, despair?...
at this moment i'm speechless. No comment.

what?..what's wrong?...
i can't deny the facts, for they are what they are. it can never be taken back. done is done.
i feel offended. i feel sad. i feel insulted. i feel mad. i feel ashamed. i feel glad(?). i feel restless...
i feel nothingness (again?).

to whom should i be angry of, i'm confused. to whom should i cast my blame, totally clueless i am.
should i blame her for her flaws brought from her childhood? or should i blame him/them for their insecurities and immaturities?
blame her for she's immature, she lacks responsibility for her actions. then, should I blame her innocence, for her chastely ways?
him/them must be blamed for their insecurities, they lack confidence and trust. blame him/them for their hypocrisy, for their much display of what-they-accused-of-her.
...but inspite of all these blames, why do i feel i owe myself the blame?..

blimey...
blame thyself for not admitting these facts,for not totally realizing such more than the likes of them.
so degrading...blame thyself for i'm now confused and swinging. better get off with it or else...

sigh...

blame thyself...it's much better.

upcoming movie..."ELektra"

i'll watch!

Take the quiz: "What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1988">"What does your birth month reveal about you?"


January

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

nothingness..in short, WALA LANG...

...lost inspiration...
i'm lost. but not lost in terms of what you're thinking.maybe lost is not the term, i'm just not into words for the past few days.i mean i can't write any essay recquired for our english class, i can't even write an entry for my blog.this one's already a blog entry but i may not able to post it. lucky enough if i'd be able to.

...nothing...
i'm not exactly sure what i'm feeling these days...i don't even know if there's something to feel. somethings different, somethings missing..yet i'm the same and whole.the pieces do not fit, either there's something added or maybe i just can't fit them properly. bobo.

...blank...
why do i feel something's missing yet i'm complete? am i?there's an empty space filling up my nothingness. nani? i try to answer my so-many-questions even though all the answers are infront of me...."love is the answer to soO many questions"...yah right! but i'd rather leave it all blank..for now.

...wide gap...
damn nothingness! it created a gorge deep enough to make it impossible for a descent and too wide to simply jump across.down the deep gorge...shall i go? if i do, to reach the bottom has a greater possibility than just staring down trying to see the bottom.but, what if i won't be able to reach the bottom of the bottomless pit?(waw..how bottomful?)...down the dark hole... will i still be able to shed light? to witness the sunrise and sunset? to watch the moonlit sky and starry night?...will i still be able to come back to those who i left behind?

...dark...
all light would be stolen from me..the light that i much depend on for life..my sight to see my bright lights would be just blank and black.all gone in the lost of one.

Now open for Buisness!!!

come one come all!!!
ejme's kiosk is now open to serve you!

feast your eyes on the latest entries about my life.
ahehe

enough of this crap...
haaay...dami na kasi nagbabasa sa aking modblog so i decided to hold that site and focus for the mean time at my "kiosk" (a.k.a blogspot).

ejme's kiosk is now open to feed you with the latest happenings of my bothered life; your hunger for the latest issues and chismax will only be satisfied by my menu of entries; and for desert, pics of the unknown.

bwahahah!!!!

just take a seat and order our combo meals.

nyok!

a basta!!! kung bumisita ka man dito, mas mabuti if you'll leave your mark. sign at my tagboard...
magcomment..
manlait...kung ano man.
Speak your Mind!
ahehe...basta,para malaman ko kung may nagbabasa dito...

salamat!
pagpasensyahan sana ang aking mga pagkukulang...

ooh...my month!

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

...and i'm now 17. my year!

grr...dapat nung mismong araw pa to ng birthday ko naka-post e..kaso daming sagabal! grr...jan6 ko nagawa tong entry na to at dapat jan6 siya nakapost,kaso naubos netcard ko.
basta..isipin nyo jan6 ha! hehe..
start here
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hahaha!!!
bday ko! hmm...mejo late ang blog na to, sorry people. di kasi nakapag-online kahapon..late na ko nakauwi. pero sinulat ko sa isang paper ung balak ko sana ilagay dito, kaso...tinatamad akong kopyahin...haba e. kaya gagawa na lang ako ng bago.

Flashback muna:start from jan.4,tuesday night... di pa ko tulog hanggang quarter-to-12. sumigaw pa nga mom ko nung banda 11pm p lang ,"miguel isang oras na lang birthday mo na!". nagmadali akong mag-ayos na kama para makatulog agad. gusto ko makatulog agad para di nila ko batiin on the spot. mas gusto ko pagkagising na lang. nung nakakatulog na ko, biglang may dalawang text message ang gumimbala sa aking pagtatangkang makatulog. txt mula kina daisy at gyver, nauna ung kay daisy ng 3 minutes. "happy birthday! Ü" nakalagay. i was sort of surprised 'coz it was unexpected. Thank you ulet daisy!

my alarm clock was set to go off at exactly 4am para maaga akong makapag-prepare...excited kasi. nagising nga ako ng 4am,...but just to turn the alarm off. at syempre...balik sa aking deep slumber! muntik pa ko di magising before 5:30, kundi na-miss ko ung schoolbus ko. tulog mga tao sa bahay, ako lang gising. ang nakabati lang sa akin bago ako umalis ay parents ko tsaka bunso kong kapatid.
sa school naman,..the usual...bati everywhere. "HAPPY birthday!!!” echoing from different rooms and along the corridor. Pati mga nasasalubong ko, bati dito bati doon. Well…iba na talaga ‘pag popU – as in popUlar! Ahehe…
ok sana lahat...kaso..si may isnag tao na nagtatampo sa akin. and to make it worst, di pa nya sbihin directly kung bakit, tpos bigla n lang niya ko dinedma. di niya ko binati... and honestly i felt my day was incomplete. pero nung gabing un, binati nya ren ako at nakipag-peace na ren.
nga pala..how did i celebrated my birthday?.. kasama ko sina jamie, baba at rapi. nag-sm kami. nagpa-studio,nag-ikot,kumain sa yellow cab. waw! laki ng ginastos ko!!! gano kalaki?..enough para maubos ko lahat ng perang dala ko. nanghiram pa ko ng 3pesos!!! omg! nakakahiya. ahehe...pero ayos lang. maraming nangyari ..as in marami...in between classes, after classes, during studio pick, sa yellow cab. soober...kalunos-lunos nung una, muntik pang masira mood ko pero mabuti na lang di natuloy. BUTI N LANG nakapagtimpi ako. bwahahaha!!! hehe...masaya ang kinalabasan. di ko na i-ddetailed dito ha... baka tamarin na kayong basahin e. (damn!naubusan pa ko ng netcard! buwiseet!!!)
mula umaga...hanggang sa pag-uwi..masaya all through out ang araw ko. pero as always, feel ko ang birthday ko ay isang linggo. hanggang jan.8 pa birthday ko! my year!!! ahehe...i'm still celebrating my birth! yey!!!
-_-_-_-ends here.

(jan8 na? 3am n pala)actually para sa akin di pa huli ang blog na to kasi feel ko birthday ko p ren.ganun naman ako parati e, feel ko birthday ko for a week. hanggang sabado lang pala.kung monday birthday ko, hanggang sabado birthday ko p ren, 6 days. kung friday naman, edi 2 days lang. gnun. kaya masaya!

it's great to be alive!

celebrating my birth every once a year

makes me feel all joys and tears.

making wishes,hoping they do come true

sharing dreams and hopes with friends like you.

to have you all with me at this time

gives me the feeling all tingly inside.

it's great to be me - alive

for you're a part of whom i call I.

my year

magpakatao...reach out.

I have this fascination about tsunamis, the beauty and majesty it posses. I am also aware of its fury and wrath, the power that lies in the nature of water.

I have been fantasizing myself having special powers and able to control tsunamis.

Ahem…a serious matter is at hand. It’s all over the news…the killer tsunamis.

The devastation it has caused, the thousand lives it took, and the lost and suffering it left for those who survived it.

As I was surfing the net, there were sites and links that promote support and aid for the victims.
Let us help in this simple way.

https://www.redcross.org/donate/donation-form.asp

conquer the waves.

love ...blah!

this was written by someone...ahehe...sorry walang copyright.
basta...hanapin nyo na lang siya sa modbolg.ahehe

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(written by an idiot for my fellow idiots)

Only you can say what love really is for you, but then maybe I can help you define it by telling you what I believe it is not.
Despite what most people think, love isn't selfless. You don't love for the sake of other people. All emotions are selfish, self-centered. No one can force you to feel anything other than what you really feel. Emotions never lie, people just misinterpret or disregard them.
Love can't be "learned". You can't "learn to love" someone you don't love. You just delude yourself into liking them.
Love isn't alms. You don't love someone because you feel sorry for them. That's not love. That's just pity.
Love isn't need. It's not love when you expect the other person to fill a gap in your life. If that need disappears or is filled by something or someone else, then the supposed "love" disappears too. If you love someone because you want security or happiness or contentment from him or her, you're not going to get those things if they're not within you in the first place.
Love isn't "completion". You're already complete as you are, you just need to discover and acknowledge it. It's not love if you think you need someone to feel complete. If that feeling doesn't come from you, you're not going to get it anywhere else.
Love isn't just a "feeling". It is both felt and known. Your emotion and reason must be in sync. "Love" without reason is just lust or shallow attraction. "Love" without emotion is simply justification and rationalization.
Love isn't just in the present. You have to love who that person was and who that person will be.
Love isn't supposed to drive you crazy. It's not supposed to wreak havoc on your life. It's supposed to inspire you into being the best possible version of yourself.

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