...self-doubt

...masama ka ejme
...mali ka.

kausap ko kaninang umaga si macar tungkol sa bumagabag-sa-akin-magdamag-kagabi.umikot ung usapan sa justice... pagiging unfair ng isang tao, how judgmental people can get..ang lumabas pa, i am beginning to doubt the people around me. gaano ba ko kasiguradong mapagkakatiwalaan sila kung closeness nila ang mga taong di ko mapagkakatiwalaan?! ang sama mang sabihin, pero un na talaga e. paranoia is setting in. un ung masama dun. it's unfair to question a person's trust, pero ano magagawa ko kung un na lang parati nangyayari? paranoid na nga ako ika nga. this paranoia is unfair para dun sa mga taong kinukwestyon ko. mali un..masama un.one way to suppress this paranoia is to confront the people involve. in this way i'll not be unfair to them.

"minsan mabuti rin ang may kaaway. natutulak kang maging malakas at matatag."--> hindi exact quotation pero close enough. ayan..nakuha from "save the last dance for me". waw...amazing...

nakausap ko ren si jamie, tungkol naman sa lovelife. (weh!?)love..di yan sinusukat kung mas matimbang ba o hindi. hindi rin necessary na tapatan to. ang mahalaga your love is TRUE. waw...amazing.
love need not be measured, for none has the scale. all it needs is to be real and true. in terms of sincerity, and not measurement.

...haaaay...."i love you more today than yesterday. but not as much as tomorrow."
haaay..(ulet)...


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