:::..torn...:::

[kuno]
ang hirap buuin ng pagkakaibigan.. mga gawaing di naisipang para sa kanila.. kunwari.. kaya nga inimbitahan bilang percussion-ist.. kasi feeling ko.. baka naiisip mo.. na di ka namin naiisasama.. or.. di mo na nakakasama si bam.. well.. di naman ako yung mahalaga sa iyo diba.. si bam lang.. ako lang ata yung isa sa tagaubos ng kanyang oras na pwedeng pwede mawala sa buhay mo.. sino lang ba ko para sa iyo.. the same thing goes with.. including you in the masterplan.. you are the omniscient human who just sits and waits.. it's not the task.. the tasks were given at random.. olats sabihin.. pero mahal kita.. bilang kaibigan.. di bilang takbuhan.. pero.. open up kasi.. siguro kay bam open kayong dalawa.. perhaps.. more open si bam sayo.. and vice-versa compared to me and you.. and me and bam.. pag-usapan mabuti..
[kuno end]

all the mushiness aside...natutunaw ako. daya mo! hate it when you know the right thing to say...blog ko to, sasabihin ko ung totoo (ewan ko lang kung dapat nyo pa mabasa to).

i love you too, as the same level as yours ... mukhang higit pa nga e..
pero kasi, this is not a matter of friends-having-no-time right now. i'm once again caught in the middle of the battlefield of my internal struggles. it's so hard to be torn into two, having to choose only one when in fact you want both.let's put it this way, it's like having a half-filled glass of water. there are two ways of describing it, one would be that it is half-filled with water. the other would be that it is half empty. do you get what i mean?

---wanderer
i lost too much for giving so much
i want to bring it back, not all but at least most of it,..
and in doing so, i'll have to lose
..you.
---

:::iyak ako dito...

daya!!! lugi...nalulugi ang kiosk ko!!!
ano na ba talaga?..hmm...ewan...
gusto ko isabog pero ayaw kong masabugan
gusto ko lundagin pero ayokong mahulog
gusto kong ibaba pero hindi na makakabangon
lahat na gusto ko, at the same time ayaw.

no more choice but to let the star's shine go dim and dark...
but if the light won't permit to have the star commit
then the night would once again be lit.

:::iyak muna ulit..

[pay your debts]