coming soon....

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mabubuo na ung major site ko. (yuck...major nga ba?).maliban pa sa blogspotS at modblog ko, melon pa isa! ahehe....pasaway e.

ewan...basta...try ko lagyan ng laman...
actually meron na, kaso ayoko ko pang ipabasa. kulang pa feel ko e.

laman nun? has to do with my past. the things na sobrang may impact sa buhay...
siguro merong beliefs at views...says at mga bagay na natutunan ko. ewan...
it's a another way to be stupid. ahehe.basta...strengths and weakness..
dito ko siguro ibubuhos ang pagka-writer ko. nyek! dama na talaga....

mababasa nyo kaya un in time?..siguro ang makakabasa lang e ung superfriends.

question is....aabot ba sila?

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http://migi-ako-walangiba.blogspot.com

lumipat na muna ako...
marami akong nais i-post kaso nauudlot na lang parati kaya nawawala ako sa aking stream of consciousness. tsaka pagkarami nang nailagay dito na masasabing mahalay. hindi ko kayang burahin sa ngayon. ayokong burahin...

kaya dito na lang kayo sa isa...kasi ito gagawin ko nang matino at maayos.

http://migi-ako-walangiba.blogspot.com

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...haaay.
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Girl: I wish I could share all the love thats in my heart, remove all the bars that keep us apart!I wish I could say all the things that I should I say, say em loud, say em clear, for the whole wide world to hear.
Choir: The whole wide world to hear.
Girl: I wish I could give, all I'm longing to give. I wish I could live, like I'm longing to live!
Choir: Longing to live.
Girl: I wish I could do all the things I can do.
Choir: ohhhh things I can do.
Girl: and though I'm way I'm overdue, I'd be starting anew.
-_-_-_-
haha...hulaan nyo kung ano yan. nakuha ko sa site ni kuya lau.

haha talaga. nakakatawa kasi...
mas maganda talaga ung pinoy version. ahehe..o ayun, hint na yun.
-_-_-_-

post muna ko ng masayang mood...
dahil nga malapit na graduation, kailangan disregard na ung mga negative energy. must convert it to positive outlook. uhuh.

so..peace awt...aayusin ko na to.

[pay your debts]

titigan mo pa! sige lang!!!

ang tosbastos!!!!
grrrr....

tama ba ung titigan ka ng isang taong wala ka namang ginagawang masama? the fact na your not, in anyway, related to each other ..tapos kung makatitig e parang may nakadikit sayong ewan. nakakainis at nakakainsulto!!! soober!!!

now, now..easy now. i have to make this clear para no misconceptions. flashback tayo:
kumain kami ni macar sa french baker sa SM annex. we ordered soup in a bread bowl with matching iced tea. ung iced tea ko large at kay macar ay small lang. nung kumakain na kami, pansin ko ung isang guy sa counter may sinasabi dun sa babaeng kahera(cashier in english.nyek). di ko marinig even though they're speaking in their normal voice. tapos ung kahera tumingin sa ilalim ng table namin ni macar. (by the way,table namin e yung high table, ung pam-bar). so tumingin rin ako sa ilalim, tiningnan ko paa ko. feel ko kasi un ung tinititigan nila dahil nga naka-*hiking slippers lang ako.so hinayaan ko lang. nang matapos na akong kumain at si macar ay hindi pa bumili ako ng isang small iced tea. nakatayo ako sa harap ng counter na walang kaimik-imik sa paghihintay sa kahera,dahil nakatalikod siya at may ginagawa pa. e samantalang may dalawang guy dun na nakatingin lang sa akin. naisip ko na-realize nila na hinihintay ko ung kahera. pero the thing is, di man lang nila ako tinanong kung ano kailangan. so they're supervisors-kuno. nakuha ko na ung order ko sa kahera, - " isang small iced tea po.favor, no ice." so wala ngang ice. ang ginawa ko, sinalin ko ung small iced tea sa large baso ko na nauna kasi meron pang ice un. so nagmukhang meron akong medium iced tea. e nakita ko ung guy ulit, nakatingin tapos may sinasabi. so inisip ko big deal sa kanya ung pagsalin ko nung tea. so nag-usap kami ni mac ng "e-paki-ba-niya-binayaran-naman-e"-kind of talk.so un na nga. e habang iniinom ko ung iced tea at kumakain pa si mac, nakatingin pa rin siya at ung isang guy patingin-tingin lang. naiirita na ko at this point, kaya naisip kong tingnan ung tagname niya- MATT ang nabasa ko. dahil ayaw niyang magpatinag sa kakatitig, nagdesisyon na kaming umalis. at habang bumababa kami ng upuan(dahil nga mataas un) talagang pinanood niya noH? kaya feel ko hanggang sa pagtalikod ko e nakatingin sila. nung makalakad na kami, pinag-uusapan namin ung pagtingin nila. tapos sinabi sa kin ni mac na nakita niyang tinitigan niya ko HeaD-to-ToE!!! aba...talagang siniyasat ako noh! so sa bigla ko binalikan namin, ang plano ay dadaanan namin ung French baker. biruin mo, hanggang sa pagdaan namin, talagang sinundan kami ng tingin. as in makikita mong nakasunod ang mga ulo nilang makakapal sa direksyon namin. ABA..THE FACE! sa pagdaan ko talagang lumingon rin ako habang taas kilay. grrrrr!!!!kapal!!!

grrr....ulet! that MATT! watta a bastard! grrrrgh! bukas babalikan ko un! sasamahan ako ng uaffles ko sa aming "get up-resbak". either magbibihis kami ng uniform or magsusuot ng 'elite-casual' style. ipapamukha ko kung sino ung tinitigan nila. siguro nainggit sila sa 'hiker-look' ko kanina. pero, it doesn't give them the right to STARE like that at people. bastards!

huminahon muna...
ngayon, bakit ba big deal to? kung titingnan ang babaw.
well...sa inyo oo...sa akin?
no.

i'm tired of this shit! mula na lang noon i'm treated like this. well actually more and worst than this.
what would you feel if something is done to you that you don't like? you're treated in a way na you're not in anyway comfortable with.. ung mga 'simpleng tingin', mga smirks, grin, wink...lahat ng yun and more , ayaw mong ginagawa sayo. and worst than that... mga 'haplos' o 'hawak' na di dapat...

what would you feel if you're being ...HARRASSED.
yes...in these 'simple ways', one can be harrassed.
ngayon, dahil nga SIMPLE LANG ang mga ito, nagpaparaya na lang...
pero what if...you grow tired of it?..that you've been paranoid because of it?..
it's sick..and i'm tired of it. enough is enough...

tao lang. pasensyahan na nga lang talaga...
[pay your debts]

everytime na magda-drama ako, napapawi rin agad. mabilis akong mag-mood swings, mabilis rin naman akong makaahon. kung ganoo ako makapagdamdam..ganun rin ako makapagparaya.

wonder how?

isipin mo na lang na merong mga mas minamalas at nagigipit compared sa kalagayan mo. in that way, ung self-pity mo napupukaw sa iba. although di nila kailangan ng pity mo. duh! mas magaling sila e...mas malakas at matino. mas matatag.

p.s.
for a change, i wrote something more inspiring. (ahem..dahil ba inspired?)ahehe.
hmm, ..iwas muna controversy. hmmm...masaya kasi e...

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[duhH] pagod na.

"pero sabi ni migi kanina o kahapon ba un.. wala daw dapat mas mahal mahal. imposible. meron at merong mas mahal. grr.

sayo: bading ka.. grrr. ewan sayo.. duh alam mo naman pala na ayaw ko sayo e. wahahaha. kung ako sayo dapat finifriend mo ko. para matuwa ako sayo. duh ka. duh. e hello kailangan mo ba
akong titigan ng masama. dukutin ko yang mata mo e. (<--familiarrrrrr?)

epal grabe. epal talaga.hay.epal kayong lahat. magpakamanhid tayong lahat..madali lang naman e."

copy paste lang yan..galing sa blog ni pepay.

haaay...ang ewan. bakit ba kasi sinusukat pa? kailangan ba talagang kwentahin? sa dinadami ng tao sa mundo, you should consider yourself lucky enough para maging parte ka ng buhay ng ibang tao. di nyo na lang kasi i-enjoy na nakilala nyo yung taong yun. e hindi e...nagiging demanding na e. gusto mo meron pang conditions and requirements. tapos kinukumpara mo pa sarili mo sa other tao-ng-buhay-niya maliban sa yo. magpapapili ka pa kung sino MAS matimbang. be considerate..medyo may pagka-selfish dyan. unfair dun sa taong pinapipili mo at dun sa taong mga pinagpipilian, where in kasama ka dun.
ako...pagod na ko sa ganyan..kaya kung pwede TIGILAN NA. oo sige, aminin ko nung una flattering tsaka nakakatawa. pero i'm getting tired of it. umuulit lang e. kaya pls...enough. you should never - and i mean, NEVER - feel that way.

yung 2nd paragraph ni pepay...dyan kay "mata". (bwahaha)!! i agree dito sa mga sinabi ni pepay. kilala ko rin kung sino to, obvious naman kasi. pero para naman sa akin, iba tao ung dudukutan ko ng mata. kasi naman dba, sobrang lakas ng loob mong titigan ang isang tao. at hindi lang basta titig..talagang balak mo na ata akong tunawin sa tingin e. tapos pag nag-meet na ung tingin natin, talagang di ka natitinag at ako pa ung iiwas ng tingin. hindi mo talaga ako gustong titigan dba. tapos ang tagal pa..tsaka obvious na obvious e. may pinaparating ka na ba? ay,kailangan ko na pala mag-ingat dahil baka awayin mo ko't sabihing bakit di ko nahahalatang may issue ako sayo at bakit di ako makuha sa isang tingin.baka sabihin mo pang manhid ako. sorry ha, bakit kasi di mo na lang isalin ung lakas ng titig mo sa bibig mo at sabihin ng diretso ung gusto mo iparating,dba?
kung hindi mo naman gustong mahuling nakatitig sa kin or kahit kanino man, reregaluhan kita ng malaking shades - asin ung malaki na sakop buong mukha mo - para naman di ka halatang nakatitig sa iba. sa monday, papahiramin kita gusto mo?

concerning pepay's 3rd paragraph...tama ka!!! epal grabe!!!!
mga tao di napapagod sa ganito...pero magdadrama rin sila sa dulo pag nangyari na ito. epal kasi...they never seem to learn from their mistakes.
kakapal talaga. sana lang talaga... History won't repeat itself.wag hayaang maulit ang mga pagkakamali nung nakaraan. we are given a second chance to make up for our wrongdoings in the past. this 2nd chance is our only last chance para mabawi ung mga pagkakamali dati. sana matauhan tayo..lalo na sila!

grabe...tama na.




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[open letter]--arbiter lang naman ako,dba?

nako...sana lang di masayang ung pinost kong kanta. un pa naman dapat para sa araw na ito..pero dahil mas mahalaga ang issue kesa sa kantahan ,heto na.

ano ba talaga mga ate? ha? ilang araw na lang nalalabi, tapos ganyan pa kayo? ano feel niyo:di pa matatapos ang HSlife nyo? na meron pang next quarter/year para makipag-ayos? isipin nyo na lang graduating na...magkakahiwalay tayo, kayo. pero still andun ung chance na magkita kayo someday. anong ihaharap nyo if ever magkita kayo someday na remembering nung pagkagraduate nyo e magkatampuhan pa rin kayo?

should i be concerned of anonymity here? o cge..i'll give you your rights for anonymity...pero sana lang matauhan kayo.
batu-bato sa langit ang tamaan sapul:
1~ ikaw, bakit ba ganyan ka na lang sa lahat ng taong nagpapalapit sa puso mo? are you enjoying sa pagtataboy sa kanila, sa amin? sa amin, kasi tanda ko ren dati nataboy mo ko. (i respected you for that,dahil noon mali talaga ako.)ano ba naman mawawala syo kung bababaan mo ng onti ang pride mo? di mo ba naa-appreciate yung mga paglapit na ginagawa nila? yung mga attempts nila na to redeem themselves? yung efforts nila na magbalik loob sayo? (woops! exag...baka mapagkamalan ka pang diyosa Ü).

ba't ba nadarama mong parati ka na lang 2nd? (at this point di ko talaga maiwasan matype name mo. kaya bigyan muna kita nick..SWEET!Ü) alam mo SWeeT, mahal ka nila..namen. i feel for you, alam ko rin ang feeling ng isang kaibigang (sabihin na nating..) "naiindyan". di ka naman nag-iisa sa mundo.di rin naman nila sinasadya na "idyanin" ka. pero sana naman maging considerate ka ren, di lang ikaw ang tao sa mundo nila. ay ewan...correct me if i'm wrong. feel ko rin may maling sinabi ako sa part na yan.

SWeet..ayokong mafeel mo na hindi ka matimbang na tao. (oi matimbang in terms of value ha..). you're unique and special,kaya nga nagsasayang sila ng oras sayo e. "nagsasayang" based from the "secret of the fox".

2~ ikaw naman, nick mo for now ay...QuTe. ahehe. sabi mo na nga nagbaba ka na ng pride. sabi mo na nga rin napapagod ka na. kung sa bagay di ka rin naman masisisi. pero di ko sinasabing may dapat talagang sisihin. gumawa ka na ng paraan, nagpakita na ng efforts...paulit ulit nga lang. tama ka dun. pero diba worth it? in the first place, bakit mo pa nga ba sinubukang makipagbati? ahem...
may point ka, bakit nga ba di na lang niya i-enjoy yung nalalabing araw na kasama kayo. ayun na nga e..sensitive siya, kailangan ng matinding panunuyo...kailangan nyo rin tulungan siya na makita nya na ganun. makita niya ang mga bagay in good terms.tulungan nyo siyang mai-convert into positive energy yung bad aura niya. kung friend ka niya talaga, tutulungan mo siya. eto ang healthy form of friendship, inaangat nyo ang isa't isa dapat. (pero di dapat magpabigat yung isa,kailangan magpabuhat ka ren.)

....
di naman sa nakikialam ako...pero, concerned ako sainyo. duh..nakasama ko kayo at naging masaya ung mga times na yun. gusto ko sana e maging masaya ulit pag kasama kayo. alam nyo bang ang hirap nun..gusto mo kasama ung dalawang tao, pero alam mong di sila magsasama kasi sa galit nila. haaay...ang drama naman...pero totoo. gusto ko makita kayo magkasama na masaya. ayokong malungkot ang isa o galit o nagdaramdam o nag-iinarte o kung ano pa. basta masaya. ngayon kung masaya na kayo na ganyan lang kayo...o cge... pilitin ko na lang na tingnan na masaya talaga kayo.

ilang araw na lang....grant yourselves happiness and pesace of mind.
-_-_-_-

p.s.
sorry if i offended you in any way. sorry kung may mali rin akong nasulat.
sorry talaga...pero nalulungkot na talaga ako para sa inyong dalawa.
sorry...if it seems that i'm barging in. di ko dapat isulat to pero, ayoko na e.
ayoko lang na mapahamak kayo in any way dahil dito. concerned lang talaga ako..lalo na syo SWeeT. i lab you E...di ko kayang ma-witness na nagkakaganyan ka.
ikaw na ren QuTe..i lab you too. (eKeee...nyak!).
hala...mushiness...naman!!!

[pay your debts]

kantahan ko kayo..(ahem)

Bizarre love triangle
Every time I think of you

I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue

It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find

Living a life that I can’t leave behind

There’s no sense in telling me

The wisdom of a fool won’t set you free

But that’s the way that it goes

And it’s what nobody knows

And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I’m waiting for that final moment

You’ll say the words that I can’t say

I feel fine and I feel goodI feel like I never should

Whenever I get this way, I just don’t know what to say

Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I’m not sure what this could mean

I don’t think you’re what you seem

I do admit to myself

That if I hurt someone else

Then we’d never see just what we’re meant to be

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I’m waiting for that final moment

You’ll say the words that I can’t say

Maybe
If we both decide to try and make it one more time
I hope we take the time to know each other well
And if the answers don't come quick we'll go with how it feels
And sometimes that's not yes or no but

Maybe there'll be no falling stars this time around
I still believe that
Honesty is all we'll ever need
You and me again, maybe

You keep asking me if I will love you for all time
If two of us will be enough to make it strong
And if we learn to keep it free and let each other grow
We'll find out there's no yes or no just

Maybe there'll be no falling stars this time around
I still believe that
Honesty is all we'll ever need
Can we make it through, maybe

No candles or guitar this time around (this time around)
I still believe that
Honesty is all we'll ever need (all we'll need)
You and me again (maybe)
Maybe

Maybe there'll be no falling stars this time around (this time around)
I still believe that
Honesty is all we'll ever need

[pay your debts]

ano ka ba..... !?!?!

http://www.wizards.com/default.asp?x=mtgcom/daily/mr166a
--->>>>>>at ano naman 'to?!?!

grrr...dapat pala di ko na lang in-open...

...."bastardo"-->dba lalaki to?

....*sigh

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[green grass days]

...
low-lives?..di naman kailangan maging ganito. ayoko rin naman tingnan ang kahit sino bilang ganito. lalo na kayo. naging bahagi na kayo ng aking pathethic-yet-so-amazing HS life. at kung sana lang, gusto kong maiwang maganda ang mga alaala sa HS life na ito. ano ba, graduating tapos tsaka magkakaganito?...hmm..nakakalungkot kaya! di nyo ba naiisip un? kung oo, waw. kung hindi, ouch.

take a look at this shot:

horizontal plain..so plain but still awe-inspiring. but it's also barren and lonesome. di siya tulad ng field naten, green-ish and overrun by human manifestations of joy and laughter.green-ish, overrun by joy...pero not genuine.
eto..quite the opposite, pero mas makatotohanan. at least malinaw sa kin na buhay ang lupang ito ngunit abandoned.much enjoyable scene kasi kampante akong i'm not decieved.

nagkamali na ang nagkamali...aminado naman e. kung pwede lang talagang ibalik ang nagdaan, ba't hindi? babalikan naman ung nakaraan kung saan napaliko ng daan para lang maituwid ang landas. di na kailangan pagkaduldulan ang pagkakamali ng isa...laking insulto pa dahil sort of napag-usapan pa. tapos ung mga hindi rin matino magmaneho ang magbibigay pa ng direksyon? waw..so amazing, does it show na they've learned from their mistakes? ahehe...so application sa ibang tao, gnun ba un?

you're missing..pero your just letting everything pass. ba't di mo kaya gawan ng paraan, instead of sulking away and drowning your sanity with those who seem to swim your way. dahil ba they feel for you kaya mas nakakabuti sa yo ang sa kanila lang magmuni-muni? ...you have their sympathy, your wavelengths coincides with one another, your feelings amplified..therefore you feel more comforted. the down thing here is you'll seal up as a box, more like pandorra's, that when someone tries to open you up all of the suppressed human inhibitions and emotions just might all gush out of the box and shall never be sealed again.

agony... it sucks.it sucks even more when you're in agony and no ones there to share half the burden, not even just a bit of a quarter. basta...kung di mo na kaya, bumitaw ka na lang. don't worry of falling or mabagsakan... either sasaluhin kita o i'll fall with you.

haaay*....(dapat "grrr". kaso, kasawa na e.) isn't this frustrating?

[pay your debts]

..i'm sick.

Avoidant

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?

jologs! [anger flooding in]

title fits...
mga jologs!!! i hate it when this happens....

"noooOOO" *pa-girl-na-tone*...
kapal mo ren no?..
gawd..alam mo ba patuloy mong pinapakitang you're a good-for-nothing bastard?! wait a sec...good-for-nothing bastard? oh, this is sooO redundant. soree. ahehe...bastardo's are no good at all. so fits you. kadiri ka talaga... soober baba na ng tingin ko sayo..so shallow...
hindi mo naman cguro balak akuin ang lahat ng titulo ng pagiging bastardo at orocan all at the same time? pati ata pagiging ZOOKEEPER ay balak mo na reng kareerin. well...bagay ka nga sa ZOO!!!
gawd...i'm becoming eViL dahil lang sa mga tulad nyo. haaay..so degrading...

para sa mga taong mababa ang lipad dahil kulang sa rufirehc...
hmmm...gusto mo ibili kita ng slambook? ung cutie-cute-cute pa para bagay sa ka-cute-an mo.asteeg mga questions mo a...ang impokrito ng dating. soober... mas mabuting bumili ka na lang ng slambook kaysa gumawa ka ng iyo. mahiya ka nga sa ginagawa mo, naglalakad ka ng isa pero un pala underneath it all meron pang isa. ano un alternative just in case pumalpak ung planA at least meron pang planB? baka naman may planC just in case wala na ung planA & B. kadire! malalandi kayo!
nanggaling sa bibig mo, nagawa mo lang ung dati dahil "mahal Ko friend Ko". pwes ako naman..gagawin ko to para sa bestfriend ko. talbog ka diyan. mahiya nga kayo...babae ung pinapatulan nyo.

grrr...nasasayang oras ko.
to sum it all up... you're all a bunch of lowlives! (translate into leighman's term,just in case di maintindihan): ang bababaw niyong mga nilalang. mababa na nga, pinapababa nyo pa. sayang kaya..patapos na ang HS life tsaka pa masisilayan ang inyong kabalastugan. hmm...come to think of it, mabuti na't lumabas ang tunay niyong baho habang maaga-aga...at least alam na namen kung sinu-sino ang mga totoong mapagkakatiwalan sa mundong to at kung sinu-sino ang mga worthy to be called a friend.

nakakapagod na'ng umasa sa mga taong di mapagkakatiwalaan, tapos babalasubasin ka pa habang nakatalikod. sana ma-feel nyo ung sakit ng isang taong nalinlang at nilinlang...

"..all this time you were pretending.."
lahat ng pag-uusap natin noon, lahat un sincere at totoo..para sa perspective ko ha(di ko na sure un sa yo).ngayon, di ko maiwasang isipin na baka lahat nun ay mga pawang walang katotohanan. kinilala ka namin higit pa sa pinapakilala mo. tinanggap ka namin sa loob ng bahay namin, kung para sa yo wala lang yun sa min big deal na un. ansakit kaya...
sa sobrang sakit it turned all these emotions to anger and rage. lahat ng red font, naisulat ko yan all in angst.
patas na. tao lang, merong emotion at nagmamahal lang sa kaibigan. hmm...still not enough reason to justify your doings...
ewan....
sa lahat ng ito...
gusto ko pa rin maayos lahat, makilala kayong muli.

sa tingin mo, ba't ko kaya kayo kinilala?

...pagod na ko. itutulog ko to...

[pay your debts]

...self-doubt

...masama ka ejme
...mali ka.

kausap ko kaninang umaga si macar tungkol sa bumagabag-sa-akin-magdamag-kagabi.umikot ung usapan sa justice... pagiging unfair ng isang tao, how judgmental people can get..ang lumabas pa, i am beginning to doubt the people around me. gaano ba ko kasiguradong mapagkakatiwalaan sila kung closeness nila ang mga taong di ko mapagkakatiwalaan?! ang sama mang sabihin, pero un na talaga e. paranoia is setting in. un ung masama dun. it's unfair to question a person's trust, pero ano magagawa ko kung un na lang parati nangyayari? paranoid na nga ako ika nga. this paranoia is unfair para dun sa mga taong kinukwestyon ko. mali un..masama un.one way to suppress this paranoia is to confront the people involve. in this way i'll not be unfair to them.

"minsan mabuti rin ang may kaaway. natutulak kang maging malakas at matatag."--> hindi exact quotation pero close enough. ayan..nakuha from "save the last dance for me". waw...amazing...

nakausap ko ren si jamie, tungkol naman sa lovelife. (weh!?)love..di yan sinusukat kung mas matimbang ba o hindi. hindi rin necessary na tapatan to. ang mahalaga your love is TRUE. waw...amazing.
love need not be measured, for none has the scale. all it needs is to be real and true. in terms of sincerity, and not measurement.

...haaaay...."i love you more today than yesterday. but not as much as tomorrow."
haaay..(ulet)...


[pay your debts]

[--struck]

...a magical night passed once again.

haaay...i'm still stuck, either Starstruck or another *-struck. lovestrcuk? hmmm...dunno...pero most likely not. a lot happenned last night and i'm not in the mood to relive all the events. *sigh.. i'm still struck.

marami rin naman ako nasayaw, di nga lang lahat. wala akong nasayaw from the juniors. sayang, hinanap ko pa man din sila.
masaya yung mga nasayaw ko kaya ok na ren. marami akong na-witness na moments ok na ren. magaganda naman ung mga slow music kaya ok.

nasayaw ko siya... 2 songs pa nga e....kaso ba't ganun? there's this *feeling* (unknown feeling)..ipagpalagay na nating alanganin. ...ang ewan... can't describe it.

haaay... grad ball na next...dun na ko babawi...
..kung meron kailangang bawiin.


blue green red

i love you guys!

[pay your debts]

pre-prom gitties...dugyot!!!

ang dugyot ng araw na to...soober. dugyutin!
a ewan...kanino ko ba napulot ang salitang to?..ahaehehe, syempre sa isang dugyot din. oi dugyot, masaya ka na sa piling nya? ahehe...nagdate pa pala kayo...ahem.

ang dugyot ng araw...ang init tapos kahit magpakalunod sa tubig wala ren, dehydrated ren agad. ahem...eto ung physical sensations sa araw na ito... dumako na tayo sa mas comprehensibong pagtingin. hala..dama ko na yan...

naayos na ung gusot with me bestfriends...yey!? dahil naayos ko na yung isshue with me bestfriends, unti-unti nang nagbabalik na ang aking metaphoric powers at emphatic perception (naks..super hero).

so dapat ok na ko, right? e, how come i feel lonely kanina? hmm..may pagkasenti-sentihan pa ren. nakakalungkot... my facial muscles and tissues were dragged down by this loneliness and gravity as well. haaay...bothered na naman (ulit) ako. pero this time it concerns another friend. pansin ko lang kanina iba kinikilos nya..he's in the "state" na naman and i feel helpless dahil di ko kayang ma-penetrate ung hard shell na ini-impose niya. haaay..i better give him more time para sa sarili niyang reflection and internalization. tama lang un...

...haaay...prom na bukas. exciting ba dapat?...
prepared na lahat ng susuutin ko. ..sana maganda ang mga pangyayari tomorrow night. haaay...another magical night.

dancing all out in the open

swaying to the tunes of love

all the hugs and kisses exchanged

as we witness full luna above

...wish you'd..."save the last dance for me".

lahat ng problema'y isayaw na lang, hayaang lunurin ng mahalinang musika. ahem.


[pay your debts]

:::..torn...:::

[kuno]
ang hirap buuin ng pagkakaibigan.. mga gawaing di naisipang para sa kanila.. kunwari.. kaya nga inimbitahan bilang percussion-ist.. kasi feeling ko.. baka naiisip mo.. na di ka namin naiisasama.. or.. di mo na nakakasama si bam.. well.. di naman ako yung mahalaga sa iyo diba.. si bam lang.. ako lang ata yung isa sa tagaubos ng kanyang oras na pwedeng pwede mawala sa buhay mo.. sino lang ba ko para sa iyo.. the same thing goes with.. including you in the masterplan.. you are the omniscient human who just sits and waits.. it's not the task.. the tasks were given at random.. olats sabihin.. pero mahal kita.. bilang kaibigan.. di bilang takbuhan.. pero.. open up kasi.. siguro kay bam open kayong dalawa.. perhaps.. more open si bam sayo.. and vice-versa compared to me and you.. and me and bam.. pag-usapan mabuti..
[kuno end]

all the mushiness aside...natutunaw ako. daya mo! hate it when you know the right thing to say...blog ko to, sasabihin ko ung totoo (ewan ko lang kung dapat nyo pa mabasa to).

i love you too, as the same level as yours ... mukhang higit pa nga e..
pero kasi, this is not a matter of friends-having-no-time right now. i'm once again caught in the middle of the battlefield of my internal struggles. it's so hard to be torn into two, having to choose only one when in fact you want both.let's put it this way, it's like having a half-filled glass of water. there are two ways of describing it, one would be that it is half-filled with water. the other would be that it is half empty. do you get what i mean?

---wanderer
i lost too much for giving so much
i want to bring it back, not all but at least most of it,..
and in doing so, i'll have to lose
..you.
---

:::iyak ako dito...

daya!!! lugi...nalulugi ang kiosk ko!!!
ano na ba talaga?..hmm...ewan...
gusto ko isabog pero ayaw kong masabugan
gusto ko lundagin pero ayokong mahulog
gusto kong ibaba pero hindi na makakabangon
lahat na gusto ko, at the same time ayaw.

no more choice but to let the star's shine go dim and dark...
but if the light won't permit to have the star commit
then the night would once again be lit.

:::iyak muna ulit..

[pay your debts]

can't find you here...by my side_-

bt ba gnun?...unti-unting bumibilis...kaya lalong nahuhuli.

-_-
nga pala...ako pala c ejme,
takbuhan ng mga sakit ng ulo
kahit san pa ko andun kyo.
isang tingalaan lang,kita nyo ko
kahit san pa ko, di na makalalayo.
ang di makalaya..yan c ejme.
-_-

this is also posted on "somebody's" blog-slash-site.do i have to explain?... teka...copy paste ko pa ito:
:::
Name: "somebody"*** (name's been altered)
Email:
IP Address: 210.23.188.212
Date: Thu Feb 17 21:40:08 PHT 2005
hajime ejme
may i leave now? -_-
whenever you want.. are you asking permission? or just informing?
anything you want.. wherever you will go.. i'll follow you..
:::

haaay...wherever i'll go, you'll follow?...how come i'm alone?..how come you're not here?pwede ba wag na lang magsalita kung mas matimbang ung actions, words aren't enough..it just adds up to my hurting...(?)
haaay...where are you now?... won't you come and find me?..
kung ganon...then i can say i'm really lost.

-_i'm lost...but it's yours_-

[pay your debts]

where should i be?

...the feeling of longing is starting to bud...
take note: starting.

what do i really want to do with my life? what's wrong?..am i willing to lose my best friends? i'm totally confused for a part of me doesn't like to lose them..and the other part is that i want to brush them away. di ko naman talaga sila pinagtatabuyan,pero i'm not accepting also. you can't stand them but you want them to stand still. this is quite unfair for their part for it seems their efforts are worthless. they've already attempted to crack this clam of mine, but each attempt was just brushed away by me. *sigh...i don't know what i'm doing anymore. my only way of surviving this rampage is to totally shut myself out of their lives. i'll never bother them again...forever. that'll be easier for me lalo na't patapos na ang high school eventually malalayo talaga ako sa kanila. pero, gusto ko nga ba talagang malayo?...itatapon ko na lng ba lahat nung napagsamahan namen?...kaya ko bang mabuhay out of guilt in the future? ... will i never regret these in the future?.. regret's one of the harsh things in this world and i don't want to be regretful.

haaaay...di ko na talaga alam kung saan ako lulugar. i'm so weak tama si phi. (as if siya malakas..hmph!). i'm not sure what's suppossed to be my disposition. grrrgh...i'm lost... all the pieces are falling one by one... if this rampage is not ceased for these remaining days,it might be too -tooo- late.

right now...i'm going offline and lay out all my cards on the table..i'll have to gamble.
i'm gonna call her now.. try to fix and save what's need to be saved.

aja!(ahehe..)
-_-

[pay your debts]

you said it before...

i've finally found the lyrics of my song-for-the-whole-week. suffering the pain makes one depressed and lonesome... kaya eto,eto ang mga pinagkakaabalahan ng mga malulungkot.

pre-valentine syndrome epal! bukas, i'll have to suffer the consequences of my fate. should have heed the warnings of the past. how foolish am i to have returned to the past. hate it! have to save what's left for me. onting panahon na lang and i'd be back in the shell,where i was freed from.

i don't have to call on catherine for my word of the day. my word for the day is "huli na". yes...too late, delayed. haay..halos lagi naman e, huli na kaya tuloy napipilitang magcram. but this time, uh-uh! it's not crammable^. it's too late so it has to remain this way. it can not be taken back easily.

---
How Could You Say You Love Me
by Sarah Geronimo
You say that you've always been true
Lookin' in your eyes I see you lie
You're trying hard to hide that
There's someone new you found and
You want me to believe that you still care

How can you hurt me this way
Everything I knew was loving you
How could you try pretending
Your love was never ending
Now you can't even say that you will stay

How, how could you say you love me
When you would go and leave me
How could you make me hurt so bad
When I have loved you more than anyone can do
Can't believe the pain
That I'm feeling now because of loving you

How can you hurt me this way
Everything I knew was loving you
How could you try pretending
Your love was never ending
Now you can't even say that you will stay

How, how could you say you love me
When you would go and leave me
How could you make me hurt so bad
When I have loved you more than anyone can do
Can't believe the pain
That I'm feeling now because of loving you

I can't seem to understand
How can love be so unkind?
Still you broke my heart despite what I've done
Still my love was not enough
Though I've given you my allI can't take it anymore

How could you say you love me
When you would go and leave me
How could you make me hurt so bad
When I have loved you more than anyone can do
Can't believe the pain
That I'm feeling now because of loving you
---

no more false hopes... it'd be easier this way.
i just hope this would not be something that i'd regret big time.

once again..
i live my life each day as if it were the end of oblivion.

"save the last dance for me"..addict na ba?

nahanap ko na ung lyrics nung intro song ng "save the last dance for me"!!
it's entitled "give my love" by edward chun.
and also, here's a pic of the lead actor, ji sung playing the role of Francis/Adrian. pero dapat name na lang nya stephen e! kasi nung first time ko makita ung trailer si stephen arimado ang nakita ko! asteeg kaya. look-a-like sila.

-_-_-_-
Give My Love
When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you're so scared
And I don't know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know thatTimes won't change my love
And I can't do nothing to keep you

Oh, I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain't here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don't give doubt a moment's rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won't change my love
Take my love all through the night

I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night
-_-_-_-

Save the last dance for me...

how,how could you say you love me

when you would go and leave

how could you make me hurt so bad

when i have loved you more than anybody could

can't believe the pain

that i'm feeling because by loving you

this song is entitled "how could you". it is the opm theme song for the latest koreanovela "Save the Last Dance for Me". i like this koreanovela because of the lead actor and actress. the lead character, adrian, reminds me of stephen azi. they're really look-a-likes! amazing. i also love the intro song for this show. i'm still struggling to find out the title and complete lyrics of the song and its artist. nicole said it's entitled "don't give your love away". but we're not sure, so we'll have to search more.

i have been singing the song above for the whole week. i really feel the song though i'm not sure why. i have an idea what could be the reason, but i find it quite unappropriate. it just really hurts for me. *sigh*...

this song is dedicated to my one-and-only lil sis. *sort-of-sniff*...

haaay...hope she'll be able to "save the last dance"..even if not for me...

-_-

essay ko sa english..

Journey of Friendship

In our journey through the path we call life, one of its challenges is in the form of people who are around us. One could not easily determine whom to trust and depend your life with. There are a lot of passers by who are ready to reach out in times of our need but expect a reward in return. They may be offering rides but their true intentions are deceitful. They are not worthy to be called friends.

A friend from my personal perspective, is a person I consider a chum or a crony, and more like a comrade and/or companion. Friends are ought to be the ultimate companions and more like one’s extensional being. Through the good times and even the worst, friends accompany you to get by the road easily. They stay by your side until you made it to the end of your journey. As you travel down the road, you’ll always find yourself where the road branches out to many different routes. Making a decision which path to take puts to the test your judgment and questions your beliefs. The only choice you have to make is to decide which of the roads to take. Your comrade who favors and supports your decision, should also have the guts to question and doubt your decision to make you see things in a wider point of view so that you’d be able to make not exactly the right decision, but the best one t it the norms. He shows his sincerest intentions for doing so.

What makes this journey tougher is when you seem to have lost your way. And when you look around your tour guide –a.k.a. friend- is nowhere to be found. You feel lonesome and left behind. But this is just a test of your independence and individuality. A friend may be someone to lean on but he should never carry you all throughout the journey. You are and always have been an independent soul, you just had someone to share it with. A friend trusts you and your capabilities. He’s just right behind you, not far away, to help you get up just in case you fall down. With a friend near by, you are never left behind and alone.

With a friends help in finishing the race, the finale is much savored when shared with a friend. Reaching the end together with your ultimate companion, he’d share the triumph and joys, and the burden and pains as well with you. He’d still be there right after the race but at the same time leaves and gives you a moment of selfishness.

And to top it all off, I close this essay with a quotation:
“Friendship is a mutual bond between souls which doesn’t lose the bond whether close-tight or far apart.”
- ejme

blimey...

...sad...
a revelation anew...
sad, quite depressing...my heart seemed to have stopped for a split second.
my mind went blank, my hearing weak...i was in oblivion.
i don't know how to react. should i be in anger, despair?...
at this moment i'm speechless. No comment.

what?..what's wrong?...
i can't deny the facts, for they are what they are. it can never be taken back. done is done.
i feel offended. i feel sad. i feel insulted. i feel mad. i feel ashamed. i feel glad(?). i feel restless...
i feel nothingness (again?).

to whom should i be angry of, i'm confused. to whom should i cast my blame, totally clueless i am.
should i blame her for her flaws brought from her childhood? or should i blame him/them for their insecurities and immaturities?
blame her for she's immature, she lacks responsibility for her actions. then, should I blame her innocence, for her chastely ways?
him/them must be blamed for their insecurities, they lack confidence and trust. blame him/them for their hypocrisy, for their much display of what-they-accused-of-her.
...but inspite of all these blames, why do i feel i owe myself the blame?..

blimey...
blame thyself for not admitting these facts,for not totally realizing such more than the likes of them.
so degrading...blame thyself for i'm now confused and swinging. better get off with it or else...

sigh...

blame thyself...it's much better.

upcoming movie..."ELektra"

i'll watch!

Take the quiz: "What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1988">"What does your birth month reveal about you?"


January

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

nothingness..in short, WALA LANG...

...lost inspiration...
i'm lost. but not lost in terms of what you're thinking.maybe lost is not the term, i'm just not into words for the past few days.i mean i can't write any essay recquired for our english class, i can't even write an entry for my blog.this one's already a blog entry but i may not able to post it. lucky enough if i'd be able to.

...nothing...
i'm not exactly sure what i'm feeling these days...i don't even know if there's something to feel. somethings different, somethings missing..yet i'm the same and whole.the pieces do not fit, either there's something added or maybe i just can't fit them properly. bobo.

...blank...
why do i feel something's missing yet i'm complete? am i?there's an empty space filling up my nothingness. nani? i try to answer my so-many-questions even though all the answers are infront of me...."love is the answer to soO many questions"...yah right! but i'd rather leave it all blank..for now.

...wide gap...
damn nothingness! it created a gorge deep enough to make it impossible for a descent and too wide to simply jump across.down the deep gorge...shall i go? if i do, to reach the bottom has a greater possibility than just staring down trying to see the bottom.but, what if i won't be able to reach the bottom of the bottomless pit?(waw..how bottomful?)...down the dark hole... will i still be able to shed light? to witness the sunrise and sunset? to watch the moonlit sky and starry night?...will i still be able to come back to those who i left behind?

...dark...
all light would be stolen from me..the light that i much depend on for life..my sight to see my bright lights would be just blank and black.all gone in the lost of one.

Now open for Buisness!!!

come one come all!!!
ejme's kiosk is now open to serve you!

feast your eyes on the latest entries about my life.
ahehe

enough of this crap...
haaay...dami na kasi nagbabasa sa aking modblog so i decided to hold that site and focus for the mean time at my "kiosk" (a.k.a blogspot).

ejme's kiosk is now open to feed you with the latest happenings of my bothered life; your hunger for the latest issues and chismax will only be satisfied by my menu of entries; and for desert, pics of the unknown.

bwahahah!!!!

just take a seat and order our combo meals.

nyok!

a basta!!! kung bumisita ka man dito, mas mabuti if you'll leave your mark. sign at my tagboard...
magcomment..
manlait...kung ano man.
Speak your Mind!
ahehe...basta,para malaman ko kung may nagbabasa dito...

salamat!
pagpasensyahan sana ang aking mga pagkukulang...

ooh...my month!

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

...and i'm now 17. my year!

grr...dapat nung mismong araw pa to ng birthday ko naka-post e..kaso daming sagabal! grr...jan6 ko nagawa tong entry na to at dapat jan6 siya nakapost,kaso naubos netcard ko.
basta..isipin nyo jan6 ha! hehe..
start here
-_-_-_-

hahaha!!!
bday ko! hmm...mejo late ang blog na to, sorry people. di kasi nakapag-online kahapon..late na ko nakauwi. pero sinulat ko sa isang paper ung balak ko sana ilagay dito, kaso...tinatamad akong kopyahin...haba e. kaya gagawa na lang ako ng bago.

Flashback muna:start from jan.4,tuesday night... di pa ko tulog hanggang quarter-to-12. sumigaw pa nga mom ko nung banda 11pm p lang ,"miguel isang oras na lang birthday mo na!". nagmadali akong mag-ayos na kama para makatulog agad. gusto ko makatulog agad para di nila ko batiin on the spot. mas gusto ko pagkagising na lang. nung nakakatulog na ko, biglang may dalawang text message ang gumimbala sa aking pagtatangkang makatulog. txt mula kina daisy at gyver, nauna ung kay daisy ng 3 minutes. "happy birthday! Ü" nakalagay. i was sort of surprised 'coz it was unexpected. Thank you ulet daisy!

my alarm clock was set to go off at exactly 4am para maaga akong makapag-prepare...excited kasi. nagising nga ako ng 4am,...but just to turn the alarm off. at syempre...balik sa aking deep slumber! muntik pa ko di magising before 5:30, kundi na-miss ko ung schoolbus ko. tulog mga tao sa bahay, ako lang gising. ang nakabati lang sa akin bago ako umalis ay parents ko tsaka bunso kong kapatid.
sa school naman,..the usual...bati everywhere. "HAPPY birthday!!!” echoing from different rooms and along the corridor. Pati mga nasasalubong ko, bati dito bati doon. Well…iba na talaga ‘pag popU – as in popUlar! Ahehe…
ok sana lahat...kaso..si may isnag tao na nagtatampo sa akin. and to make it worst, di pa nya sbihin directly kung bakit, tpos bigla n lang niya ko dinedma. di niya ko binati... and honestly i felt my day was incomplete. pero nung gabing un, binati nya ren ako at nakipag-peace na ren.
nga pala..how did i celebrated my birthday?.. kasama ko sina jamie, baba at rapi. nag-sm kami. nagpa-studio,nag-ikot,kumain sa yellow cab. waw! laki ng ginastos ko!!! gano kalaki?..enough para maubos ko lahat ng perang dala ko. nanghiram pa ko ng 3pesos!!! omg! nakakahiya. ahehe...pero ayos lang. maraming nangyari ..as in marami...in between classes, after classes, during studio pick, sa yellow cab. soober...kalunos-lunos nung una, muntik pang masira mood ko pero mabuti na lang di natuloy. BUTI N LANG nakapagtimpi ako. bwahahaha!!! hehe...masaya ang kinalabasan. di ko na i-ddetailed dito ha... baka tamarin na kayong basahin e. (damn!naubusan pa ko ng netcard! buwiseet!!!)
mula umaga...hanggang sa pag-uwi..masaya all through out ang araw ko. pero as always, feel ko ang birthday ko ay isang linggo. hanggang jan.8 pa birthday ko! my year!!! ahehe...i'm still celebrating my birth! yey!!!
-_-_-_-ends here.

(jan8 na? 3am n pala)actually para sa akin di pa huli ang blog na to kasi feel ko birthday ko p ren.ganun naman ako parati e, feel ko birthday ko for a week. hanggang sabado lang pala.kung monday birthday ko, hanggang sabado birthday ko p ren, 6 days. kung friday naman, edi 2 days lang. gnun. kaya masaya!

it's great to be alive!

celebrating my birth every once a year

makes me feel all joys and tears.

making wishes,hoping they do come true

sharing dreams and hopes with friends like you.

to have you all with me at this time

gives me the feeling all tingly inside.

it's great to be me - alive

for you're a part of whom i call I.

my year

magpakatao...reach out.

I have this fascination about tsunamis, the beauty and majesty it posses. I am also aware of its fury and wrath, the power that lies in the nature of water.

I have been fantasizing myself having special powers and able to control tsunamis.

Ahem…a serious matter is at hand. It’s all over the news…the killer tsunamis.

The devastation it has caused, the thousand lives it took, and the lost and suffering it left for those who survived it.

As I was surfing the net, there were sites and links that promote support and aid for the victims.
Let us help in this simple way.

https://www.redcross.org/donate/donation-form.asp

conquer the waves.

love ...blah!

this was written by someone...ahehe...sorry walang copyright.
basta...hanapin nyo na lang siya sa modbolg.ahehe

-_-_-_-
(written by an idiot for my fellow idiots)

Only you can say what love really is for you, but then maybe I can help you define it by telling you what I believe it is not.
Despite what most people think, love isn't selfless. You don't love for the sake of other people. All emotions are selfish, self-centered. No one can force you to feel anything other than what you really feel. Emotions never lie, people just misinterpret or disregard them.
Love can't be "learned". You can't "learn to love" someone you don't love. You just delude yourself into liking them.
Love isn't alms. You don't love someone because you feel sorry for them. That's not love. That's just pity.
Love isn't need. It's not love when you expect the other person to fill a gap in your life. If that need disappears or is filled by something or someone else, then the supposed "love" disappears too. If you love someone because you want security or happiness or contentment from him or her, you're not going to get those things if they're not within you in the first place.
Love isn't "completion". You're already complete as you are, you just need to discover and acknowledge it. It's not love if you think you need someone to feel complete. If that feeling doesn't come from you, you're not going to get it anywhere else.
Love isn't just a "feeling". It is both felt and known. Your emotion and reason must be in sync. "Love" without reason is just lust or shallow attraction. "Love" without emotion is simply justification and rationalization.
Love isn't just in the present. You have to love who that person was and who that person will be.
Love isn't supposed to drive you crazy. It's not supposed to wreak havoc on your life. It's supposed to inspire you into being the best possible version of yourself.

[oro?]

blog...bloog..blooooog

nu ba to???
may nakakabasa ba neto?..ahehe...gusto ko lang malaman. feeling ko wala...
mabuti na ren...
pero if ever may nagbabasa dyan, patulong naman o. pano maglagay ng tagboard?
pano ko maiimprove ang site na to?...

haaay....

meron pa pala ako isang blogsite! ahehhehe...

http://ejme.modblog.com

sana lang may makatulong...
ahehe

haunted

....haunting you i can smell you - alive
your heart pounding in my head ...
lyrics from evanescence's "haunted".

have you ever felt haunted?
every now and then, it just suddenly pops out of nowhere...pop!
like a bubblegum overblown then suddenly breaks, catching your attention from the silence of the room.

haunted...i feel haunted.
not by somebody, nor someone.not even by something.
well maybe it is something ... 'coz i'm not even sure what it is.
a thought?.. an idea? ...maybe a disease.. or a part of me..
grrr...it sucks big time!
a part of you that you don't want to be a part of you.
it's something (have no idea what to call "it", but i'm aware what it is) that i don't want to be a part of me. i don't want to let "it" control me..

i've been trying to throw it away..but it always find its way back.
reminding you of long ago...a long ago you've been running away from for years.
a past you once suppressed, ...but now it seems to have been released from the core you've trapped it into to.

bujururu..bujururu...rubbish..

hmmm...actually ... this is blasphemy...this case is already close. CLOSE i say!bwahaha!!! if i really want to conquer this "it", better not talk more about it. right?
ahehe...it's not there anymore.
maybe i was just reminded of it from time to time...no biggie!
right?

right on!!!
yeah!!!

-_-_-
m not haunted.......m free_-

missing_-

awww...
one year na since umalis si stephen papunta states.

wala na akong nababalitaan sa kanya...
hindi pa kami ng-eemail ulit. madalas ko pa naman din siya k-mail..

ngchat daw siya!! as in kanina lng...sayang!!! di kami nag-abot!! grrr..

haaay...so miss him.
di ko p napapadala sa kanya ung batchshirt niya! grrr...
di pa nga nagbabayad curie angels para dun e! daya! ako nag-abono.
mahal p ipadala un...

haaay...hinahanaphanap ,,,musta na kaya ikaw stephen azi?

sana paramdam ka...

friends ?...whata friend...sad_-

Mood: dismay_- Playing: my prerogative

ha!

tsk...whata friend!?!?!

so vile!...treacherous­ !...wicked!!!

a complete biatch!!!

you are sooooo unfair and cruel!!

treating people like that! ha! you make me puke!!!

alam mo ba it hurts, na you'll find out na ung pagkakakilala mo sa isang tao ay iba pala. soobra! hindi ako makapaniwalang nagawa mo yun sa bestfriend ko! how could you butt in other people's buisiness na pinapamukha mong isa kang kaibigan? it's so...unfair!

ang iyong quote,

.."basta friend ko, ipagtatanggol ko.."

.."basta friend ko, kampi ako"...

so bobo! bobo!!! stubborn!!! napaka-bias!!! your not a good friend for me! your the lowest form of a friend!

alam mo ba..."your friends are your worst enemies". ...wala lang share ko lang. (bigla daw ba magsingit ng ganyan..hehe).

too much..it's too much.

a friend in every situation doesn't necessarily mean na kampi ka. pag nasa alanganin ung friend mo, alalayan mo. pag inaaway friend mo ipagtanggol mo. take note, ipagtanggol lang hindi ipaglaban. e panu kung ang frend mo na nang-aaway..anong karapatan mong makipag-away ren?..kasi ang alam mo ganun e. actually, pinangungunahan mo pa nga minsan e. di mo pabayaan muna, feel mo naman sobrang umaasa sayo ung tao. nakikipaggera ka na wala sa sarili mong away. away ng iba, sawsaw ka naman.

at wala kang karapatan na pigilan akong ipagtanggol ang mga taong kilala ko. wala kang karapatan talaga.

Ako: "..baka naman mali lang yung tingin niyo?"

Ikaw: "miggy, huwag mong ipagtanggol yung tao porke Busmate mo."

oh! sobrang nakaka-offend yun, di mo ba alam?..(nga pala bobo ka.).

kung titingnan ang sama ko na para gantuhin ka...pero enough. can't take it anymore.

you'll drown someday in your pile of lies and deception.

all i can say is...as your friend,

..i'll try to save you.

it's up to you whether you'll take my hand or not.